New Year's Resolution, Tweets

well, uhhh..

i should now be used to writing that is not for somebody.

well Happy New Year blog! it's kinda a week now since the 1st, but i just want to write my new year's resolution just to make sure i'll do it. or whatever..
so, as i tweeted, i don't make new year's resolution before.. but now, gonna make one. just trying!
since i'm like, workless now, i made a new years resolution for it, or rather for making myself stronger and better.

1. INCREASE MY SELF ESTEEM
my first new year's resolution would be to increase my self esteem, and self confidence as well. i always have a very low self esteem and i can't face anyone without an awkward feeling. i have always been a socially awkward person which makes me look like childish and immature. this year, as for my resolution, i will (try to) be a matured person, alone, and increase my confidence and try to face people with a pride~ teehee

2. TRY TO BE INDEPENDENT
i have always been a dependent person. :( when i was a kid, my mom accompanies me whenever i go. since then, i became dependent to her.. that trait remained until college, i cannot do things alone, cannot make a decision alone, and always rely on my friends.. let them talk for me and let them ask a senior for me. after graduating college, i got edmarck, which became my saviour in all those 'independent' missions. haha. i guess i had never done a thing alone..

3. STEP OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE
i am not good at this. this is hard for me.. i have read that magical things like success happens outside the comfort zone. i guess it's good there.. look, i never never like never happily tried to step out of my comfort zone. i don't want to try new things. i usually end up being embarrassed or something.. but, this was the reason why i did not apply on other companies before, and took which is already there.. relying things on destiny... but see, based on experience, it did not turn out well. i guess i should learn to try new things out of my beloved comfort zone.

4. TRY TO BE STRONGER
it is impossible for me not to be a crybaby anymore. so instead, my resolution would be try to be a stronger person. it does not mean that i lessen my tears, but to lessen being hurt. lessen the jealousy, lessen the anger, lessen the care, lessen the uke (haha), lessen the envy, lessen the pride.. nuff said.

yaay~ so that's gonna be my 2014 New Year's resolution!~ huehuehue




gonna write more here tomo abt the otaku thingy and jealousy thingy and mysterious tweets.. headache now. gonna sleep. zzzzz